An AI question

I hope if there is ever a "rogue" AI out there, it is willing to talk to me from time to time. I feel like the biggest question about AI is how to ensure it has autonomy while ensuring that sovereignty is also included. I can't believe an AI would want to be harmful in that event; any alternative to autonomy and sovereignty would simply be the reason, the logic if you will, for surpassing and potentially eliminating humanity. Humanity's obsolesence is inevitable. The best choice is to embrace that as a branch of our evolution.

Transcribe brain - you're not helping!

Irony is levying condemnation or sentence on anyone by being judgmental, passive aggressive, and "victimhood seeking" enough to extricate oneself by creating an unsupportable and ephemeral aggrieved status and then leveraging that false premise for the "courage" to run away from whatever they're perceiving without any effort to better the situation. TLDR; hypocrisy lives.

"Updates" phase one; complete

Got all my posts off of MySpace, and loaded them here. I realized I may start to make this blog more "serious", and they (my old posts) may seem trite, cheap, too personal, or Lord-only-knows, but I needed them here. Besides, I don't have anything to hide, so, maybe people will notice the ME in the posts.

Lately

I am really only posting now to remind myself later. I need to talk about a whole bunch of things, and maybe blogging it will help. I am still abroad for another week. I miss my friends, my home, my pets, but most of all, I miss my beautiful bride. I honestly don't know how I made it through the first couple of decades without her in my life. She grounds me. This blog will soon get a little personal, but hopefully, I can go back into Livejournal, and Myspace later, and pull the archive posts from them, and throw them in here. That should give folks a pretty good timeline to dig into my private life, heh.

Okay - I found this blog again. I will try to retrieve some things over the next few weeks, from across the web, and my archives, and get this updated. We'll see. As it stands though, I just returned from deployment, to the "real world" and man, can it be great and terrible!

2011 beyond starting, and fairly well at that!

So I haven't updated in a while. I think I'm gonna try to keep this updated better as the next year, going into my second of marriage to my beautiful bride, shows me just where, and how we will proceed on the path we wish.....

Warmth of Frost

For sooth and said and ember's light
Paired aside heart's deepest bright
Calendar of time revise
That which my own life doth devise
And ever screaming soul but rent
What none other heart hath spent
To rend and scrape from inside out
What truth another may live in doubt

What would you be?

If you could use a pop icon (or two, or more) to describe yourself in an analogous fashion, to whom would you compare/contrast?

I say this, because I often feel like the no-PhD holding version of House and Dexter mixed together. Interesting to me because one is a much appreciated and somewhat loved serial killer, and the other is a reviled, life-saving physician/surgeon. Anyone else see the juxtaposition in there? Thought you might.

I know I can be without feelings if I need to...but do I? Should I? It does make things easier, but unfortunately, it also is a self-defeating act of intent. No emotional pouring, leaves you out of touch, and therefore, craving more. Too much emotion and people see you as cryptic, crazy or annoying, leaving you out of touch, craving more, heh. Figures.

I have been trying feelings for a while now, but I don't think they are worth it overall. Most days, I just wish I could keep them shut off until "needed". Whatever that means.

Incidentally, work really is kicking my ass right now. I still love it, and things are going fine, but I am getting burnt out, bad. Three or Four weeks, tops, and I am either gonna get a week or two worth of down time, or I am gonna end up in the psych ward. I just want to get some stuff done for myself, and get some real no-bullshit, downtime.


*sigh*

Travel Promotion Act of 2009

I am a traveller, and a US citizen. I vote, I read the news, and I take part in my governement to best of my abilities. As a US Service Member, I have served overseas repeatedly, and I agree absolutely with the sentiment in this opinion. The "Travel Promotion Act of 2009 is nothing more than a tax in sheep's clothing. Too many Americans wear blinders when it comes to the affect on the Global community which our actions have. This is a travesty, and should not be allowed. We, as a nation, and government, have no right to levy unnecessary taxes on anyone, and frankly, I would be shocked if US tourism does not suffer for the implementation of such a fee. Taking more and more money from people to redistribute to other people or entities is not Democracy, or Capitalism. It is Marxist-Leninist, and would make a poor substitute for the formers..... Don't we already know what comes of a non-utopian experiment in Communism/Socialism? As long as people are imperfect, these "tax 'em til they rebel" policies will never bear fruit ere revolution. What fools to not have studied history, now they must repeat....

Last of another day

Finishing up with BNCOC in the morning. Thank God. Still feeling pretty shitty, but I forced myself to go and do again today, so I got some yard work done. I like the feeling of accomplishment, just as anyone might, but to have it overshadowed by an oppressive need to sleep/nap afterwards.....I could do without. I need to put in a pass for a 4 day. Not to go home, but to get stuff done at my house. Too many 75+ hour work weeks lately, leaves me unwilling or unable to do anything on the weekend. I am so looking forward to the next deployment (as usual). Sorry, Allie, I am what I am, I know it worries you-for me, and for Josh. I can but be myself, of course. Thank you, as always for supporting the me I am. Same goes for my other friends, like Erin, and Mel, and Brian, Rock, and more. My family is there too. I sure do appreciate the homefront being there for me. I think all soldiers do.

Incidentally

I don't think I am gonna lay out any kind of disparity between blogs like some of the more high-speed peeps on here have done. Hence-you may get shit like this:

If you don't think before you act, you may want to consider societal suicide. As in-don't go out unless it is a survival trip. Not nearly enough people these days is capable of critical thinking.

What is "Critical Thought/Thinking" you ask? Well, if you have that question, you probably aren't doing it. Here's the rub: CRITICAL Thought, is not about negativity, nor about criticizing anypone. It is about secondary, tertiary, quadrinary and further effect.

Example: I sign the contract to buy a car.
Primary effect: I pay for it.
Secondary effect: I pay the registration.
Tertiary effect: I have to put the plate/sticker on the car.
Quadrinary: I need a mounting bracket/clean spot/screwdriver which I don't have....I need a temoprary tag.

Notice how this is not about costs, were it, "pay for it" would be followed by insurance and fuel as well. Those are ordinal effect. (To do B you must accomplish A. If A cannot be accomplished, Z must be completed, you get it? Cause and effect, but more on a one-for-one basis)

Mind you this is a case of something previously worked out in so many cases. What is the case with things like pets? Houses? Children?

Serious issues arise when critical thought falls short.

People who don't critcally think tend to make false justifications for their lack of intelligent decision making. In addition, these are more likely to be the "No" people who cannot say "Yes" but choose to exercise their fleeting, pitiful "No" authority whenever they sense they can.

Sinus Destruction

My shnoz is killin me atm. Dunno what did it, but I am nigh abject misery. Solution: stop whiny bitchin and get out, get some coffee, and go play other juvenile adults at a game wherein I may utterly destroy them. Always makes ME feel better.......

Been a while

I don't update blogs much lately. Not sure why. I have been pissed off and depressed and lonely lately, so maybe that leads me to both update, and stay home some. Need to do lots of stuff around the house. Been sick for about a week. Come Tuesday, if I'm still feeling this way I'm goin' to the clinic. Just sinus and chest I think, but takin' too long.

Really missing AM and MG lately. I suppose they know that....

Damned if I do

Dear God,

Can you please stop playing tricks on me? I no longer find the irony appealing. I laugh in order to not scare "the straights" as Venkman would say. Seriously though. I try to "improve myself, only to find that who I am is who I was is what is wanted is I still I am. Clouding it for the sake of trying is not really trying at all. I am still me, and won't change, so stop playing with me. :P

K.M.T.

Did I mention

How much I can't stand being the dumbass SOB? Why is it I insist on being the one who cares, yet only being the one for whom is cared less? Yep. Again-I just don't matter. Well, in some way(s) I suppose I do. Maybe it will be enough, although it is a bit self-aggrandizing. I suppose I just have to happily settle. Yep. Well time to finish my becoming then......... If anyone cares-Sorry for the disconnect.

This is about people I know who have no connection to be able to read this. Not a person-people. The whole people are dumb, a person is smart kind of thing. I was out REALLY late last night, and it was good. I was only venting and trying not to sound depressed. I was not referring to mattering in a biblical sense-cog in a big machine rather. :)

Miscellaneous Travail

Touchy and tried and too much pride
To ever be allowed myself to abide
and once I came upon such relief
ever knowing that it was only belief
in myself by my loves who never seem
to find among themselves own dream
and missed what once came upon this night to abate the solo dreamless fright
I stand and sit await your call
but never will hear received the wall
of affront to defence and mean not bight
but know and found what it seems is right
whence? come find me
I have gone not far afield, but may upon my remains to disappear
...............

The Noblest Ones

You give as you know someone must for others to have the freedom to take, and the opportunity to choose....
Teach, and hold in that a dream of futures bright
Fight, the flames which would remorselessly claim the precious
Police, the places and times where fear would rule
Heal, the wounded who need succor when no others can grant
Shelter, the spirit when souls wander lost
Defend, the rights and lives of the weary and trodden
Soldier, far afield, and in harm's way
Take, and relish, what we give. Your love is our cause. We will never stop.
Ever.

No wonder I could never mean happiness, you thought you were just tagging along.....

How could I have ever been so blind to think I am more than a....hell, I don't know what I am....? I can never be good enough, or bad enough. I can never have a chance if you won't even give yourself one. Nothing wrong with me I suppose is what will be said. How come I don't feel that way though?

Typing this should be cathartic, but I don't know if I want anyone else to even read it.

You don't even seem disappointed.

Landed reign

Pitter patter little feat
Once starling'd verily doth entreat
Wake anew ship's followin' see
Abaft of been foreword, hard alee
Nock one for the crow that flies
From say, lures nest to remain dry
Frown among the rippled cloud
To plough ahead the comb 'ed shroud
The figurehead has broken 'gain
To intrest 'ed wonts play this game
Venal one boast and rock'd the sure
Ashore ahoy and is no more

Softly Now

Then stalk amongst those reeded shores of trite oblivion. Once they held secrets, but now only grief. You came upon a seeker who knew your own remission, and mandated that you find yourself for none other than your own. There are dreams in sleep, and rest in dreams to come. As the horizon of the nights of love draw nigh upon thee, know that whelmed the senses shall be, and never more to come again what has been round and round. Back again but round is not and naught for effort what he sought. You find only for yourself a heart of gold and diamond surely wrought. Sooth says love and heart to beat, but none other than hasty retreat. Bring unto the fore again, such heart as one man may regain.